September 2, 2010
I woke up this morning just uncomfortable in my own skin. I have not really mentioned much about myself yet in this blog, but I do want to share something today. I think that doing a weekly blog post will help me with my up and down Yo-Yo struggle with weight. I have always had issues with it, but it really got bad when I quit my job to stay at home with the kids and has gotten worse from there. I work different freelance customer service jobs from my computer to make the money to pay the bills. I sit at this computer about 15 hours a day. I work mainly at night late till about 4am when the kids are sleep and that causes me to snack for two reasons, one I am bored, and two I feel the food helps me stay awake as I start to drift off to sleep around 2am. I sleep about 5 hours a night and the rest of the time I am awake EATING. I use the many excuses that I cant afford the gym, weight watchers is a lot per week, I have tried every diet there is and even over the counter diet pills and nothing has really worked. I will drop 30 pounds or so and then put it right back on. I use the excuse that my husband does the grocery shopping lately and he buys "kid" friendly meals that are fast and easy and fattening. I use the excuse of time, I dont have enough when I have to work to pay the bills. I got on the scale this morning and I am SHOCKED. I am the heaviest that I have been since I was pregnant with my daughter 4 years ago and I am far from being pregnant. I can feel this becoming an issue with depression as well. I dont have a single thing I can fit into. I have a closet full of clothing that is too tight. I have a pair of cut off sweats that I am living in daily. Something has got to give. I am even too embarrassed to put a picture up of a before so here is a picture of my scale. Dont mind the fact that I need a pedicure. haha. I found an eHow article on how to calculate your points and I can have 27 weight watcher points a day. I subscribed to Hungrygirl.com . I have to say her recipes he sends out by email are so good and she already calculates the points for you. I am trying to get motivated here. Every season for the Biggest Loser I say I am going to do it this time with them, and this time I am! Any of my readers have the same issues please leave comments and give me some advice. I have lost his battle every time I fight it, and this time I want to win it. My starting weight is 231 my goal is 155 and my goal weight date is February 14th 2011. That is my 35th birthday and my anniversary. Wish me luck.